Causing my own seizures, banging my head against the wall.

   I do have Epilepsy, but sometimes I am so frustated with my life that I will go into a state of depression and hit myself in the head causing even more Seizures. I want to share this because there are so many people out there who deal with Epilepsy with Depression togrether. Even though I have a great support system, I still have times I have a sence of worthlessness. I think one of the things that make me feel this way is because even though I have different treament options such as VNS and medication, I feal slowed down and not being able to keep up with the world around me.

 This is the first time I have talked about this in my blog, simply because of what people might think or say. The only reason I am sharing this now is because I know that know that there are others out there who may have the same problem.

   Other ways that I have cause my own seisures include, dinking with medication, staring at the wall, and watching strobe videos on YouTube. 

  Well I hope my honesty has helped those reading. If you struggle with the same thing please comment and share bellow.

My Bucket List

One thing that I have been thinking about as my life goes on is things I want to do bwfore I get to old, or before my condition gets to bad. I have been making a list of things goals in lfe that I want to accomplish in my life as well as places that I would like to go. Life is to short and we should do everythingf we can to live our dreams no matter how old or how old we are, and no matter what obstacles are put in our way. 

I have my own list that I want to share, I will be working as hard as I can to check some of these of soon.

• 1 Go to Wrestlemania
• 2 Visit another country
• 3 Make a film about Epilepsy
• 4 Earn a YouTube Silver and Gold Play Button
• 5 Take my family on cool vacations
• 6 Help young people, who strugle with depression, and substance abuse.
• 7 Go to VidCon
• 8 Have a meet up to meet some of my subscribers.
• 9 Visit NYC and see the 9/11 memorial

   There are probably a bunch of other things I can add to my list that I haven't thaught of yet. My piont is this, do as munch as you can while your here, because if you sit around, life might just pass you bye.

Even if you have epilepsy.

I have had epilepsy all my life, ever since birth, and ever since then even though I have struggled, I have never let anyone tell me that I can't do what my heart desires. That is the topic of this article, that even if you have epilepsy you can still do it. There are many things I have accomplished in my life that I would like to share with you. I am 37 years old, I am a husband, and a father. I am well respected by my family, friends and others who know me. Things I am very good at are writing, blogging, and short film making on YouTube. I also have Pastors certificate and License to Preach after taking an online course a few years ago.

  Well I'm not trying to gloat about myself, just trying to show that just because you have a disability it doesn't mean you can't do anything with your life. Plus I know that there are other, that think epileptics are helpless, wich is far from the truth. I had a friend in High School who had seizures really bad, she was in a wheel chair, and even though she had the option to stay home because she was so bad, she came to School every day and even graduated with honors. Unfortunately about a year or two later she passed away, but she never let her condition control her life. 

   Just to end this article I just want to say that I hope this has encouraged those who have epilepsy, and I also hope this has opened the eyes of those who may think that epileptics, and others with disabilities are helpless because we are not. It may take us more time to accomplish tasks, but overall we can still do it.